Here on Earth

I know you are working in my life, Lord.

Some things that are happening now seems odd and hard to understand. They are not part of my plan, this is not how I envisioned everything to be. This pain, the sudden ecstasy, the confusion, everything does not make sense to me. But I know you are working in my life.

As I lay in bed to rest my tired body and mind, I know you are carefully plotting everything out. Making sure that everything is weaved carefully to make a perfect fabric. With every color, every thread, is perfectly aligned for that wonderful material.

Everything now seems like a big puzzle that’s waiting to be completed, and this piece I am holding does not make sense to me. I cannot even imagine the whole puzzle, but why should I worry, right? Why should I waste my time wondering about the rest of the pieces, when I can just lift my trust to you and believe that you’ll bring all the pieces together for me.

Thank you, Lord, that I can sleep in peace and live to give you glory. Thank you that I don’t have to worry about everything else, because someone else is taking care of everything in my life.

You are working in my life, with people, with the situations, with all the emotions. I am in your mind as you work in it. I am remembered as you take care of everything else. I know I will not be disappointed. You always exceeds expectations.

Here on Earth

Random Drama

Little by little I am lifting my fingers off my palm
I am trying to let go
I know I must put my trust in You
You know better than I do
The sadness is swimming inside my head
Waiting for that one moment to cripple me
I tried to be still. But it in silence,
I can hear the proverbial clock ticking
Counting the days before goodbye

Little by little, my palms are opening
In you Lord, I trust that through this pain
It will lead me to know you more
Intimately. Deeper.
I can feel the word goodbye hovering above
My head. Playing with the winds
Ready to break me.

Lord, my palms are wide open
I’m giving everything up to you
Please take care of it, of everything that’s
Precious to me
Take care of it, hide it in your heart
Hold it with your embrace
Nurture it for whom it belongs
I cannot let it go for anyone but you
For in your arms I know it’ll be
Well taken cared of.
Well loved.
Protected.
Keep it in your arms
Until my own palms are ready
To accept it back again
Until my grasps are stronger
Until my arms are ready
To carry the weight of everything it is

My palms are wide open, Lord
Please take my hand, grasp it tight
I entrust my life to you
Lead me where I need to go
My palms can be sweaty
Please Lord don’t let it go
My palms are wide open
Fill it with your love
My palms are wide open
Ready to let go
Ready to hold you

Blog Challenges, Here on Earth

Week 2: A Song About My Most Recent (Ex-Boy)Friend.

Can I skip this week’s challenge?! Hahahha!
Since I don’t have any ex-boyfriend, let me share a song that I’ve been listening and singing to for the past month for my most recent soon-to-be-ex-future boyfriend (why is my love-life sounds so complicated?!)

And why, why do I have to put it out here?! 

Urgh. This prompt is so timely.

Urgh. 

My heart. My heart.

Okay.

Enough of my nonsense ramblings.
Here’s the song:

Walang Hanggan by Quest
It’s the official soundtrack of Ang Kwento Nating Dalawa movie.

You may want to listen to it via Spotify or watch their Youtube Official video while reading the lyrics for a complete moment of #feels.

Walang Hanggan

Gulong gulo ang puso
Saan ba to patungo
Di ko alam 
Di ko alam

Hinarap lahat ng balakid
Pero bakit walang kapit
Ang mga pangakong binitawan
Di ko alam
Di ko alam

Nung ika’y nilalamig ako yung init
Kapag takot sa bukas ako yung unang sisilip
Ginawa ko nang lahat hindi parin sapat kasi
Ikay mawawala na

Nawalan ng gana ang tadhana
Nanlalamig yung dating nagbabaga
Kung maibabalik lang sana
Titiisin ko na kahit paulit ulit

Tapos pipilitin ko na di maulit
Ang masulyapan mo yung dulo
Akala ko walang hanggan pero may dulo
Bawat segundo saking puso iuukit

Lahat ng alalala aking iguguhit
Para makalimutan mong may dulo
Ang sabi mo walang hanggan pero eto tayo sa dulo
Kelan ka ba napaso
Nanlalamig na ang iyong braso
Bakit ganyan
Bakit ganyan

Kung pwede lang pakisagot lahat ng bakit
Saan galing ang galit
Meron bang nangaakit
Kailangan ko lang malinawan

Bakit ganyan
Bakit ganyan
Handang panindigan lahat ng ating plano
Sigurado kahit di kabisado
Gagawin ko ang lahat
Walang pake kung di sapat
Kasi ika’y mawawala na

Nawalan ng gana ang tadhana
Nanlalamig yung dating nagbabaga
Kung maibabalik lang sana
Iindahin ko ang sakit na gumuguhit

Ngingiti sa likod ng luhang pumupunit
Baka masulyapan mo yung dulo
Kasi sabi mo walang hanggan ba’t merong dulo
Ibibigay ko ang lahat paulit ulit

Bawat pagkakataon ay aking isusulit
Basta matalikuran mo yung dulo

Ang sabi mo walang hanggan ba’t andito tayo sa dulo
Ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh
Sa dulo ohh ohh ohhh ohhh
Wag ka munang tumalikod

Bumalik ka muna dito
Padampi kahit anino
Ayokong mag isa dito
Wala na bang bisa aking dalangin

Tinataboy na ba ng langit
Nakikiusap nalang sa hangin
Ngayong wala kana saakin
Bakit ba biglang meron tayong dulo

Pangako mo walang hanggan
Bakit nandyan ka sa dulo
Pwede bang kalimutan mong may dulo
Handa ako sa walang hanggan

Pangako mo walang hanggan
Akala ko walang hanggan
Pero eto tayo sa dulo
Kung ikay mawawala sa aking piling

Dinggin mo ang aking bilin
Lingon ka lang paminsan minsan
Dito lang ako di ako lilisan
Sa ating dulo hindi ako lilisan
Di ako lilisan

Okay. I’m done for this week’s challenge. Let me get my pillows and cry in self pity. Just kidding!

Stay tuned for next week’s prompt post!

In Stillness

To Live, About Him.

I am on the process of letting go. Finger by finger, I am opening my palm to hand it over to the Lord. I cannot hand this over to anyone except to Him. In Him I am sure it’ll be well taken care of.

And while I’m going through the process, the Lord is handing over new better things for me.

He’s taking something away, because He wants me to hold something for Him.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters.

 Romans 8:28-29

After months of constant prayer, finally God sent me an answer. Two of my officemates were able to join us for a bible study session. I was able to share God’s word to the three of them.

I was in panic that morning when after confirming that they’ll be joining the session, I found out I forgot my trusty bible. What shall I do? This can’t happen now! I mean, I’ve been waiting for this chance; I cannot fail and make a wrong impression!
Fortunately, I have my old bible on my office desk, but it felt different. I am so used with my other bible, the way each pages touch my fingers, the way each verses were highlighted, I am not sure what should I do now?
But then, I was reminded. This is not about the book. This is not about the bible. This is about the Word of God. About His message. About His love. It doesn’t matter if I read the word from a dusty, torn piece of paper, or with my beautiful personal bible. It’s the Holy Spirit I should rely on, not my personal skills, not the personal comfort I find in my bible. This is about Him. This is not about my display of personal knowledge about Him, neither about my ability to speak well, or to look good in the eyes of others. This is about Jesus, His word, and His love for us.

So, I met with my officemates, and seek the Holy Spirit to lead me in sharing God’s message. And, Praise God! I was able to finish the whole chapter with even new insights. With God’s grace, they express thirst and hunger for more of His words. And we’ll be setting another schedule for them to start with their own pace. Next time, I will share the bridge Gospel to them.

Truly, when God takes away something from you, He will send you new things to take care of. Now, I am fully convinced that He called me to do these things. I am one of the blessed children who are called to help in the expansion of His kingdom.
Letting go is getting easier this time, because I know that my palms will not remain empty. For I have a lot to take care of. To hold. To lead. And to love.

Blog Challenges, Here on Earth

Week 1: A Song From Your Childhood

Okay, so I was invited by Cary to join their blogging challenge, which I gladly accepted.  This is about music, with 25 blog prompts, which will run for 25 weeks. Note: Weeks.

I lost track of time, so this post is meant to cover up the missed week. Ssssh!

Week 1: A Song from your Childhood

Somewhere Out There

I specifically selected this song because as far I can remember this was the first song that I was able to memorize in full, plus this was the OST of the movie, American Tale.

Somewhere Out There

Somewhere out there
Beneath the pale moonlight
Someone’s thinking of me
And loving me tonight

Somewhere out there
Someone’s saying a prayer
That we’ll find one another
In that big somewhere out there

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby

It helps to think we’re sleeping underneath the same big sky
Somewhere out there
If love can see us through

Then we’ll be together
Somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

(And oh, I just realized how comforting and bittersweet this song is. Huhuhu, my heart!)