I am on the process of letting go. Finger by finger, I am opening my palm to hand it over to the Lord. I cannot hand this over to anyone except to Him. In Him I am sure it’ll be well taken care of.
And while I’m going through the process, the Lord is handing over new better things for me.
He’s taking something away, because He wants me to hold something for Him.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters.
After months of constant prayer, finally God sent me an answer. Two of my officemates were able to join us for a bible study session. I was able to share God’s word to the three of them.
I was in panic that morning when after confirming that they’ll be joining the session, I found out I forgot my trusty bible. What shall I do? This can’t happen now! I mean, I’ve been waiting for this chance; I cannot fail and make a wrong impression!
Fortunately, I have my old bible on my office desk, but it felt different. I am so used with my other bible, the way each pages touch my fingers, the way each verses were highlighted, I am not sure what should I do now?
But then, I was reminded. This is not about the book. This is not about the bible. This is about the Word of God. About His message. About His love. It doesn’t matter if I read the word from a dusty, torn piece of paper, or with my beautiful personal bible. It’s the Holy Spirit I should rely on, not my personal skills, not the personal comfort I find in my bible. This is about Him. This is not about my display of personal knowledge about Him, neither about my ability to speak well, or to look good in the eyes of others. This is about Jesus, His word, and His love for us.
So, I met with my officemates, and seek the Holy Spirit to lead me in sharing God’s message. And, Praise God! I was able to finish the whole chapter with even new insights. With God’s grace, they express thirst and hunger for more of His words. And we’ll be setting another schedule for them to start with their own pace. Next time, I will share the bridge Gospel to them.
Truly, when God takes away something from you, He will send you new things to take care of. Now, I am fully convinced that He called me to do these things. I am one of the blessed children who are called to help in the expansion of His kingdom.
Letting go is getting easier this time, because I know that my palms will not remain empty. For I have a lot to take care of. To hold. To lead. And to love.