I decided to let it all go.
This time, I commit myself to really let it go. Let God take charge, and I will stop making stupid daydreams, plans, scenarios and what-nots in my head.I sat there, under the glaring rays of the sun, almost blinding me as I read my bible. I was waiting for that time. I told myself I am going to take the chance to speak to Him, heart to heart.
It was the perfect chance.
I let it go. In His hands I gave up everything. I asked Him to take care of it. I know I have told Him already about it, but my heart was not ready. I was still clinging onto it. I was pretending all alone that I did let it go. He knows I didn’t.
But I am left with no other choice. No other better choice but to let Him take care of everything that’s hurting me. To let Him handle my pain, to let Him fill the emptiness I am feeling.
He blessed me with this ability to love, to feel pain, to love again despite the pain. He, too, can take away the pain, the fear to love again because of the pain. He will take care of me. He will. He always will.
I commit myself to stop thinking of it, to channel my thoughts to something better – to Him. I am putting an end to all the unnecessary thoughts. My hands are tied, and no matter how I go back in my memories it will not change the present or the future. For everything that’s happening in my life is based on His plans.
He is the God of perfect timing. The God who is in full control of everything. And I trust that through all of these sufferings, His name will be glorified.