Here on Earth

Brief Note: Fit Me! by Maybelline

I was running out of BB Stick, so I checked out Beauty MNL online shop to look for a new beauty item to try. Since, Maybelline just brought Fit Me! in the Philippines, I decided to buy myself a Fit Me! Matte Foundation in True Beige.

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I used it yesterday afternoon, almost right after it arrived in the delivery.

I like how this Foundation does not feel like a foundation.  I love how the True Beige fits my complexion almost perfectly. It looks so natural on my skin, and it’s so light on the face unlike other liquid foundation I used before. Application wise, this is almost comparable to a BB cream, except this is NOT sticky, and surprisingly easy to blend.

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Pardon the rough hand.
Yesterday, I used Maybelline Pressed powder on top of the Fit Me! foundation, but this morning I opted to use it alone. And I like how I was able to achieve the No-MakeUp-Look for my face. It has a matte finish, but not drying. It’s hydrating enough for my skin. It has a light to medium coverage, and really does cover the blemishes and pores.

(I must include this: As I had my bible reading this afternoon, guess what I got?

If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of God.

Galatians 1:10

Uhmn, I guess I am reminded not to lose focus on worldly stuff, such as make-up)

In Stillness

Heartbreak in His Arms. 

 “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18

Here I am at 11:35 p.m., searching my heart, my mind, repeatedly asking God, “Lord, what am I supposed to feel? How should a brokenhearted Christian should feel?”

Finally, I saw the proof. The proof that would put all my doubts and hopes to the trash bin. My eyes diverted somewhere. And I held my insides tight, my muscles and brain focus in walking, making sure I would not quiver. That I would not break down. I did not.

“Lord, what’s this feeling? Is this how it is when you are holding my heart, making sure it won’t crack?” I was asking this question, trying to understand the comforting pain I was experiencing.

Thinking about what happened, I know I am shattered; I could use an empty space in a corner, sit in a fetal position until forever.  But I can feel God’s love holding me up. I feel His comforting arms hugging me tight, making sure I won’t fall. I feel His gentle hands, holding my delicate heart, healing it every time it cracks. I know I am broken, but He is not letting me fall apart.

I still heard myself laugh nonchalantly, cracked a few jokes in between serious talks, threw some playful gestures and expressions. I was supposed to be crumbling inside and outside, but why am I not feeling it?

I am not so used in this kind of hopeful pain. I am not used in finding comfort in the most absurd situation. I am not used in not breaking down when my heart breaks. It’s been so long when I had my heart broken because of someone. And I barely remember what pain is, since I surrender my life to Christ and Him erasing all the heartbreaks, filling the void with His everlasting love.

This pain, it suddenly feels strangely familiar to me.

I tried to pause and remind myself what I just saw, what it should mean to me, what I should be feeling. I should be breaking down now, bawling, asking God why it has to happen to me. Why again? Why this time?

Yes, I tried asking Him, but a comforting assurance filled my heart. It gave me comfort, it tells me that there’s no need to cry. There’s no need to wallow in pain. There’s no need to feel miserable. There’s a hope that says I may be feeling broken now, but I am not alone. God is with me, and He has a better plan for me.

This is part of His plan.

I remember praying this morning, asking Him to reveal Himself to me, again. I want to encounter Him again, to remind me to find delight in His presence, in pain, in sorrow, in loneliness. And surprise, He just put me in this. I didn’t expect this, but He thinks I need this. I decided to wholeheartedly accept this test. And I know I will get through this.

Yeah, I guess this is how God wanted me to feel a heartbreak. Maybe this is how it’s strangely delightful to be broken while inside Jesus Christ comforting embrace. Maybe this is how it feels to be looking forward for a new beginning, because He just gave me an ending to something I find hard to let go.

I can sleep in comfort tonight, and for the first time, after a heartbreak, I could assure you that no tears will fall on my pillows.

“Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. ” – James 1:2-4

My God is an awesome God. He is the King of kings. He heals my broken heart.

Here on Earth

Friday, Free-day.

The government declared this day to be a Special Non-Working Day due to ASEAN Summit held in Manila. And since it’s not often that we get this almost-long-weekend kind of holiday, I tagged Forester C to Taytay for some thrift-shopping.

I’ve been to Taytay Market once, years ago, and it was not the most pleasant experience since it was too hot to walk around, but I enjoy the shopping experience, since you get to find really cheap clothing items (you just have to make sure you have a quick eye to shop for good ones).

We toured the four clusters of shopping area at Taytay Market. We were sweating, because the temperature was terrible, but we were able to buy quite a lot. I was able to buy thirteen (13) items and my total spending was only P970.00!

What did I buy with Php970.00?

  1. Two pairs of Mickey Mouse printed shorts and tank top
  2. A gray training tights
  3. White spaghetti-strap top
  4. A black romper pants
  5. A polo dress
  6. Training top
  7. Two pairs of shorts
  8. Culottes in pink color
  9. A blouse for my Mom
  10. A black pencil cut skirt
  11.  White printed shirt

I always make it a point to scour the whole area for items to buy, and I buy what I can buy since Taytay area is quite far from where I live. Besides, you wouldn’t need to bring hefty amount of money because you could already buy a lot with your P1,000.00.

I was a bit disappointed though, because I wasn’t able to chance upon some dresses which I can wear to Church or at work, but that gives me enough reason to visit Taytay again.

We reached the place at around 11 am, and we finished walking around at 2:30 p.m. We had lunch in the nearby pizza parlor, and decided to accomplish our bible study session for that day.

(And oh, I dropped by at Robinsons Galeria on my way home, and guess what? I was tricked (by myself) to buying make-ups again! I’ll tell you about it on my next post!)

Here on Earth

Rebirthed. 

Whew. It’s like breathing in some fresh air here, huh. Oh well. This isn’t really my first blog post, but since I decided to delete my old posts (2005- 2016) to have a “fresh start”, this appears to be the first entry.

No, I am not fooling around (April Fool’s day?).

Anyhow, why did I decide to delete every old posts?

Simply because those old posts were all about the old version of me. I am no longer part of that past, and no matter how colorful and crazy those memories were, I don’t think I have to be constantly reminded of how everything were.

No, it wasn’t really that bad. But with  my new life with Christ, nothing in the past should matter. I am looking forward for my unseen future, in this new journey as His follower, and the only thing that matters now is my today and tomorrow with Him.

Here, I would chronicle some things that goes on with my daily life. It may not be as vibrant as you would imagine it to be being His follower. But I hope in this journey, we could help each other grow our faith in Him.

I would still be posting about mundane things, about crazy things that fills my mind, I would still be the crazy, but better, me.

You will read how I fell to the trap of worldly needs, and how I would struggle overcoming my shortcomings, or how often I would forget how faithful God is to me. I would be a weak Christian from time to time, but oftentimes I would be proudly standing on my toes glorifying God. Waiting on Him is a journey, a journey I would love to grow old with.

Life will always be filled with reasons to struggle and encounter pain, but we must find strength in Him. Let Him be our guide, our Lord, until He returns for us.

Be patient, therefore, brothers, until the coming of the Lord. See how the farmer waits for the precious fruit of the earth, being patient about it, until it receives the early and the late rains.  You also, be patient. Establish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand.

James 5:7-8